Jairus First Xmas 2010..Ho Ho Ho...

This year was Jairus First xmas,and this darling has received lotsa pressies from everyone.Thanks to all of you! Well,as usual on the 24th xmas eve my friends and family came over to spend the eve with us and this year im glad to have J(Lucy bf) and jairus with us for the first time.It took me weeks to finalize the menu for the night,i made changes here n there but overall im glad all the food was a big hit that night.These days is a challenge to cook,clean the hse and jaga Jairus at the same time.Therefore i actually had to prepares some of the ingredients the night before as i can only work in the kitchen when Jairus goes to bed.
Thank God for Hubby,he knew i did not like to handle the chicken n its intestines n hence took over and prepared the dish on his own.Muack, yummy yummy yummy,I love cooking for my loved ones and is great to spend xmas eve with ur loved ones.

1) Roast chicken with apple and celery
2) stuff mushroom with bacon,garlic,oregano and cheese
3) laksa pesto with cashew nuts
4) Salad
5) Potato salad(couetesy from the lee)
6) Honey Baked Ham(Courtesy from Lucy)
7) salsa and chips(Courtesy frm J)
8)Mango cake(Couetsy from stella)

                                                   

Little by little...STep by Step...Jairus @ 8 Months

Baby Jairus is now 8 months old..i cant believe time passes so fast..Jairus has grown so strong and so much in the past month.He can now do leopard crawl and simply loves to stand up with support.He is no longer the little baby who simply lies in his rocker all day long.Falls and bruises are going to be his friends for this period.oh right,im guilty of neglience.First incident was when i was changing him on mum's bed.I walked out of the room to get tissue paper and off he roll down the bed...then  just the other day poor Jairus had two bad falls within a day.Well the first fall happen when i placed him on the playmat without placing any cushion behind him.Within spilt seconds the little one lost balance and "TA DE" he hit his head real hard on the ground.Hmmm he was crying for some time but consolable.Thank God there was no bump except some redness of his head.What make it worst was he also fell off my bed on the very same night.everyone knows how high my bed is and all i did was to place him on the bed, surrounded him with pillows and walk out of the room to look for his bolster.To my horror as i was walking into the room ,i actually saw Jairus falling off the bed landing flat on his face.  I ran as fast as i could and all i heard was a loud thump!and follow by loud cries.My heart broke when i saw  that and i started scolding daddy for not monitoring him in the room.Oh well i know was not really daddy fault but i was in a fluster so he kenna from me.poor Jairus was wailing away and i had to hug and console him for quite some time.I prayed very hard that the two falls that day did not hurt his head or brain.I felt so terrible.Im so sorry for being such a careless mummy,i fail to realise my little Jairus who was once so physiacally "helpless and weak" is now a strong and adventurous boy.He doesnt need mummy to be around to perform leaps and stunts.Praise God nothing happen bad to him.

He is very fun to play with these days but t the same time he is getting quite a handful.He now knows how to throw tantrum for instance he HATES to be in the car seat hence putting him in and strapping him is a dreadful chore.He starts complaining and cry whenever he is in the carseat and there were times i gave in by carrying him out, but seems like i gotta stop doing that otherwise he will not be discipline in future and daddy n mummy will have a hard time driving a crying baby around.Jairus could hardly sit still or lie still which makes changing diaper really difficult.It use to take us only two mins to change him but now we take about maybe six to eight mins.Mummy had been looking like a panda lately as recently she had cried way too much and is seriously deprived of SLEEP.Baby Jairus has not been zzz well these days,he used to turn in around 10 plus but these days he will only zzz around 12 plus,and he keeps waking up in the middle of the night crying.SO i will have to carry and pacify him back to zzz again.Though he will usually fall asleep soon (sometimes his eyes are not even open) but it really taking a toil on me as he may wake up 5-6 times in a night so im not well rested and i really wonder am i able to take it when school start next week.I dont need to zzz for many hours but i do need quality rest.Already i dont get enough rest before Jairus was born i cant imagine how can i cope with work and Jairus.Lately I been praying very hard that Jairus will be able to zzz through the night if not pls gve me lotsa  lotsa strength and energy to that i can multi- task and function well at both work n home.

Dearest Jairus mummy is gg back to work in a week time and i promise you i will rush home as soon as possible each day.Mummy has to work so that i can provide more for you in future.Please do not forget about mummy,these 8 mths have been fantastic and memorable.Please remember mummy loves you alot so please be obedient and co-operative .You are daddy and mummy's pride and joy and we are so proud of you,our handsome little boy.

Farewell Jack 13th December 2010

13th December is a day I will never forget.This is another saddest day of my life.Today i received a piece of terrible news from stella that meimei called from malaysia and informed Jack has passed away in an accident.I was stunned,speccheless and shivering.I couldnt believe my ears and asked my sister if he was only in critical condition,i was in denial stage.how could a 19 year old boy lost his life in such a mishap.He is my only biao di and i watched him grow.I could still remember the day when he was borned,when aunt n uncle annnounced his arrival we were filled with joy.From a tiny little baby he is now a 19 year old young man who has his own aspiration,,dreams to fulfil.he has yet to date,start a family or even see jairus for the second time.How can he just leave us without bidding goodbye?It hit me real hard as it reminded me of brother death.I just lost an elder brother several years back and now i lost a younger brother.It has been awhile since i last broke down.I cant control my tears and memories keep flowing back,i wonder why did heaven play such a cruel joke on my family.He was the the only son just like my brother and they were both so young.

I love the way Jack always call me caili jie jie.As im the youngest in the family i always treat little jack as my younger brother.Though we do not spend much time together as he lives in malaysia, there is a closeness between us.I cant believe he just left us like this.Why didnt he ever add me in facebook or msn so that i could have more opportunities to interact and know more about him?i feel so lousy as a cousin,i wasnt always there for him and hardly bought him any stuff before.perhaps i took him for granted or never did i expect him to depart so suddenly.He was always bugging me to go to malaysia to vitsit them and i always say alright someday i will go.Never did i expect the day i go into malaysia was to attend his wake.There he was lying moitionless in the coffin.he looks sad and i can clearly see bruises on his face.The active chatty boy is unusually quiet today,no matter how much i talk to him there was no response.I was just talking to an empty shell.Jack soul has left his body n i dunno if he heard what i told him.I miss you so much Jack and life will never be he same without you around.

Though i do not know what exactly happened on the fateful day,perhaps u were speeding, perhaps ur brakes didnt work,perhaps you were simply too tired or so.Whatever it is please do not hold it against yourself.Please rest in peace wherever you are and bless your family.Thank you for being my cousin.I love you and take care till i see you again

Farewell Jack..

Eric Clapton/Tears in heaven

7 months with 2 pearlies

Baby Jairus is now7 months and these days he is so much fun to play with.He can now sit up for long n loves to lunge forward to grab things,at times he even tend to stand on his own.Eveyone comments how active he is just like a worm who wriggles non- stop.N yes he rolled off the bed just the other day when i stepped out of the room for less than 10 seconds, i think he had a bad fright.Mummy was apologising non stop to the crying bub who was wailing away.thank god he fell in between the playyard n the bed and did not hurt his head.he baby talk alot and loves to play peekaboo most.Silly parents,grandparents and aunties are always trying ways n means just to make the little one smile.

His 2 lower pearlies are out and OUch it does hurt when he tend to bite u these days.He drools alot and tend to bite alot too guess his gums are really feeling uncomfortable.The other day i even tried to let him suckle me for awhile gosh i guess that was a mistake and these days he doesnt need mummy anymore.The darn Pacifier has officially replaced mummy.Sigh ,if i could turn back time i would hv insisted on latching him and try ways n means to establish breastfeeding.I do miss those moments.

Anyway my little jairus looks like a one year old toddler and everyone comments how cute and what a doll he is.Most of the time he is very friendly,smiling to everyone who talks to him and even allowing others to carry him.However he seems to be selective too, there are certain ppl whom jairus doesnt like and will cry the moment he sees them.The inqusitive little bub loves playing with tissue paper the most,the other day i caught him sitting quietly at a corner and when i went over he was happily tearing n eating tissue paper away.his guilty look was so cute and i did manage to snap a few shots.haha.Suddenly Jairus seems to be outgrowing all his shoes,but i remember the last time i compared his feet with the shoes they were way too small  and now he cant fit into them anymore.Seems like jairus is growing so fast even i cant keep up with him.What a pity i love those shoes and he only wore them for 1-2 times only.i better start digging out all the clothes which i packed earlier on in case my little boy cant fit into them anymore.

He is sucha darling boy,i wonder what will happen to our relationship when i return bk to work in a few weeks time?i fear that he is no longer close to me,i fear that his grandparents will hv diff parenting methods,i fear that i will miss out many of his milestones such as crawling or walking,i fear that i cant manage my time well, i fear that i will regret gg bk to work...all these uncertainity is definitely stressing me out.I can only place my fears unto God and commit myself to him.

These 7 mths have definitely been the happiest days of my life.I will always remember these days.

Blues

I have been feeling very depressed lately,the reality is sinking in.....my no pay leave is ending soon and i have to be back to work in a mth time.The thought of leaving jairus to others to take care really breaks my heart.I understand his grandparents love him alot and he will be in good hands but this means i am no longer the first person he sees when he gets up every morning n im gonna miss that lovely morning smile of his.i love how he and i laze around in bed each morning and i will miss preparing porridge,feeding him and even bathing him.I wonder whats the point of giving birth to a baby n leaving him in someone else care at the end of the day.I will only be seeing him for a few hrs each day.Will i miss his moment of crawling and walking?i really cherish every moment we spend together now and i wonder will i regret my decision when he grows up.I gonna miss him so so much.I miss the days when i was preggie with him , at least he is in my stomach and i can protect and be with him all the time.

He is growing at an amazing rate and the day will come when Jairus grow up and loves to be with his friends instead of us.How long more can i carry n cuddle him in my arms?Im so envious that my frens are able to be a stay at home mum,i dun wanna be a green eye monster,i love munn n do not wish to burden him with any financial issues.

Yes im able to take no pay leave up to 4 years but since im getting my connect plan next yr i really dunno if i should be going back.On the other hand Im worried abt $$$.WIll i be able to cope without any salary>how abt all my commitment?I asked god for an answer but i feel he is ignoring me,i dun hear from him.Many ppl hv been encouraging me to stay at hm for a yr or two,can i really afford?

I have cried many times over  this issue,can anyone enlighten me?

6 months and on.......

                                                     Da Yi's Birthday....I wonder can i grab that flame???

Baby Jairus is now 6 mths old and i just cant get enough of him,i love spending every second and every minute with him,there isnt a moment i feel like escaping away from him,these days everyone comments he is skinny and he resembles daddy.Hmmm i cant really tell except that they both have one single eye lid and one double eyelid.oh yes Bany Jairus has big feet just like his daddy n i guess he has the skinny genes too.

Since we came back from australia i started feeding Jairus porridge.Oh yes i enjoy cooking for him everyday.Feeding him might be a chore but it brings me great joy to see jairus eating the food i prepare painstakingly.He likes to swing his legs when he is in his high chair and he loves playing with his new bibs, he is sucha cutie pie..at times the porridge will even be on his hair,his nose and not forgetting the floor also.Just when i was feeding him the other day some thoughts ran through my mind, i wonder will jairus ever remember what mummy has done for him?will he be feeding me the day when im old and sickly?Being a mother makes me realise how much my mum has done for us.I realise how much effort she put in to bring up the five of us.i love my mummy so much.


After we came back from australia,Baby JAirus was very grouchy and he keeps waking up in the the middle of the night when his pacifier come off from his mouth,not forgetting his violent kicks.Every night i had to wake up so many times till i was feelin so tired and frustrated.n yes i decided to borrow a play pen from pam and let jairus zzz on his own.hmm we did utilise the playpen for a few days however i still prefer to hv him by my side so that i do not have to bend over the playpen countless times in a night.For the next few days,I pray to god that Jairus will be able to zzz through the night and he will be able to sleep well without fussing.halleujah,God answered my prayer.Since then,Jairus has been sleeping through every night.AMEN!
 
Bay Jairus is very inquisitive these days, he would turn his head whenever he hear sound and would wanna grab n feel whatever things that caught his sight.He loves smiling at people and is generally very friendly towards everyone(except when he sees the OL gang).Jairus also likes to interact and he likes to make coo,ha,mmmm and many funny sound.My baby is so playful!

Im enjoying motherhood!woohoo!

the little bub turns 5 mths old!

Baby jairus is now 5 mth old and can now flip on his stomach.However when he is on his stomach too long he get frustrated and will start to fuss.he can flip very fast and on a couple on occassion he nearly roll down the sofa.thank god i managed to catch him.he is getting stonger each day and when he kicks in to my face or body it can really hurt.He is also very responsive and  likes to make coo and mmmm sounds.he likes to use his fingers and little hand to grab whatever he sees and put it in his little mouth. He also has many new and cute expressions these days.On good days when he is friendly he smiles at everyone and allow anyone to carry him,however on days when he does  not have enough  zzz.he will start to get cranky.these few nights he has been zzz through and i really feel the difference when he does not wake up for milk in the wee hours.lets hope  this sustain.He has lost some weight after his discharge and everyone commented how skinny he is.He hs been drinking more these days and i hope my little bub will be chubby once again!Jairus has brought so much joy and love to me and all,he has also brought my family closer.Im thankful for this beautiful child.

Yay I did it!

Hurray hurray,this is the best birthday present i got for myself.Thank god for his blessing.I finally passed my driving test with a total of 10 points!i was actually disheartened after failing the test twice but thank god i decided to persevere..munn has been very encouraging too. the tester even commented im a good driver however i just felt that i was very blessed with a nice tester and driving instructor.Im glad i finally got my licence during my leave as im very sure i wont have time to learn once i go back to work.now that i gt my my licence think i should start to get all the direction right... now im just waiting for hubby to change his car...wink WInk!

My 28 Birthday(Part 2)

Oh yes is my birthday today and daddy has to work hence we only have dinner plans in the night.Hubby said that we should leave jairus with my in laws so that we can enjoy the date, so my in laws came over in the afternoon and brought jairus back with them.Recieved two books from mil as my birthday pressies/Oh my i missed my son,i realised im the one with seperation anxiety,i missed the days when he was in my stomach for 10 mths hence i could bring him everywhere i go and no one can snatch him away from me.Yes im possessive.I love being with him alone,just the two of us.
Anyway since i was all alone in the afternoon, i decided to go for a facial to pamper myself.Soon evening came n i was all ready to go on a date with daddy.For this year i told munn not to reveal the makan place to me as i wanted a surprise,yes im prompted to him many times like i nvr been to rochester park,equinox  and blah blah blah.so deep dwn i was hoping he caught my hints but again munn always has a mind of his own,he keeps asking me if i wanna knw the venue n my ans was no!
haha on our way there,munn presented my birthday card(IS a SOP and if i do not get it i will scream my head off) and when i read the content i was so touched that i cried.,hubby is so sweet!n to my surprise he actually got me a birthday pressie which i was least expecting.he actually bought me an accessory ring to match my outfit and accessory.that was really so sweet of him.Muack@
And yes we had our dinner at valley point shopping centre DOZO.The ambience and service was great and the food was awesome.thumbs up for each dish.It was a shame that the lousy camera did not do justice to the food.I love the choice munn made!By the time we finished dinner it was 9 plus so we made our way to in laws house.Mil bought me a banana chocolate cake from eatzi and i gt to cut the cake again.jairus was already sleeping then hence we did not manage to get a shot with mummy precious boy.
Alright thats all for my 28th birthday.

My 28th Birthday (Part 1)

My goodness im actually 28 years old this year,cant believe time actually passes so fast after you turned 18.This year is a special year for me as it is the first time i will be spending my birthday with my darling precious baby-Jairus.Of cuz not forgetting my sweetheart munn.Birthday celebrations used to be held in disco with several crazy hours of dancing and drinking or in ktv singing for hours.Those were the days now im definitely too old for that!

Now to me the best birthday celebration is spending time with your loved ones over makan sessions.I cherish my family and friends alot.This year i co- celebrated my birthday with xueying at Garden Slug.Wow the table was filled with 13 adults and 5 kiddos,we could hardly interact with each individual however we still had a great time laughing and crapping over lunch.Food was not too bad however i guess the air con was not really working hence the place was quite warm and a few of us were actually perspiring away.Baby jairus obviously does not know is mummy birthday and attention on him was more than the birthday gal herself.lol.

In the evening, we went to paragon with mummy and sisters for dinner.After much thinking we finally decided to tried the imperial treasure super peking duck.Yes the name itself reveal we were there for the DUCK.To be frank everyone commented the duck was great however as i was recovering from a cold i could hardly taste anything,what a pity.The place looks nice the ambience was good however i was not very pleased with the service though.Hubby orded a soup n it did not come and when we asked the service staff, he insisted we did not order,i was rather pissed and it took them real long to serve us the soup.Well since we are paying so much  i expect better  service!hmmm the duck was great but a few other dishes was disappointing,i actually ordered a dish with a fanciful name and to my horror it was actually yong tau foo.Goodness and we paid 20 plus for five piece yong tau foo,i felt conned.Another disappointing dish was the nan ru zhu rou,yuck, it was a deep fried dish and the pork was so fat and oily,we cant taste the nan ru and yes we did not even finish that dish.
After dinner,we walked ard paragon and we decided to go to bakerzin for dessert and coffee,we had a great time taking pic with one another and chit chatting, the evening was lovely.Thank god for sisters!it feels so good to be the youngest as my two sisters do dote on me alot and of cuz everyone loves Jairus!

The Sze Tohs are down..

Baby Jairus has not been sleeping well these few nights,on 25th Aug, wed night he actually zzz at 11 plus and woke up at 2am.Afterwhich he refuses to go back to bed hence poor mum had to play with him till 4 plus.I was not in deep zzzz hence i could hear his voice in my room.I chided him for being naughty  and grab him back to my room so that mum can have some decent sleep as she still need to work the following day,Back in my room the little bub still refuse to zzz,i did not play with him and just watch him quietly by the side.He finally KO around 6 plus in the morning,It has been a long time since jairus wake up and play in the wee hours.After  he turned 3 mths each night he will zzz around 1o -11 plus and will only wake up for milk at night,hence i find his behaviour was abnormal.

27th  Aug,Thursday after mum left work,i found jairus to be extremely sticky to me, he wants to be carried most of the time and i thought he was quit feverish.However as he was still able to eat(appetite reduced) n smile and play i thought he was fine.After my tuition tat night,we  even brought jairus and joey down for a walk.About ten plus we put him to zzz.Suddenly he woke up from his zzz crying very badly and unconsolable,both daddy and i tried carrying and pacifying him but it did not work.he was crying and coughing till he threw up and that was the point we decided to rush him to KK hospital.

 By the time we reach KK it was 12 am and to my surprise he was running a temperature of 38.9 my goodness it was actually a high fever!slap forehead how could i fail to notice my baby is so sick and worse i did not even take his temperature.while waiting for the doc i was sponging him and the doc advised
him to be admitted as jairus has not been drinking much and they r worried that he might be dehydrated.by the time he was in the ward it was 3 am, he was extremely tired and irritable and couldnt stop crying when the nurse carried him.Poor daddy had to drive home and bring both baby and my barang to the hospital.while waiting for daddy, i carried jairus in my arms thats when he fell asleep.I did not zzz the whole night as i was sponging him and at 6am his temperature 39.1.He has started coughing and sneezing too.

the next day he did a head scan,a blood test and a nose swab and the results show that he is down with viral infection and it will take him a few days to recover.anyway we were glad that he need not be put on drip and was able to discharge on saturday evening.However by saturday i could feel that im falling sick too and yes i fell sick for the next few days tooo however as i still need to take care of him, i had to put on a mask as im afraid to spread the bug to him.However i felt extremely tired and weak the next few days.Thank god daddy was on child sick leave hence he was able to take care of jairus if not i do not think i will be able to cope.

Hee hee just when i was recovering,it was daddy's turn to fall sick again.sigh.

Jairus is Four months old...Open Ur Mouth Pls...

Baby Jairus is now 4 mths old and he just had his second jab recently,thank god this time round they applied some numb cream on his thigh and therefore it was not as painful compared to the first round.Jairus had been drooling alot and he simply loves to chew and suck on his fingers or anything that he can get hold of...PD said Jairus is doing well and he might be teething soon..After the visit to the PD,daddy and i finally brought him to punggol plaza for a SHAVE...i love jairus hair however he has been shedding alot recently and if we do not chop off his hair guess is gonna be patchy real soon.My heart ache as the lady shaves his head...but silly jairus was still smiling away on daddy's legs. ANyway he is now a cute little botak and i cant wait for his hair to grow.

LAst night,daddy and i bought him some fruit puree and we attempted to feed him.My goodness introducing food to a baby is indeed very challenging,guess u gonna be real patient.It was so messy,the food was everywhere as he spits out the food each time we try to feed him.He had this funny expression on his face which was really cute guess the puree was sourish as it was pear and apricot flavour.Throughout the whole feeding session we went "Jairus open ur mouth,open...."for countless times and yes we realised we might have to get a high chair real soon.

My darling boy is growing at an amazing rate...thank god for this beautiful gift and creation...

Jairus FIRst DIp!

We finally bought an inflatable pool for baby Jairus as we decided not to sign up any package with Baby spa.The pool is rather huge and thank God we managed to fit it into out master room toilet.Daddy is a good swimmer whereas mummy is not and i really hope Jairus will love the water as well.I really wonder why is it after 4 years mummy still has not pick up swimming from hubby.Perhaps my resolution for 2011 is to master swimming!baby Jairus looks so adorable in those swimming trunks!check out my two babies in the pool,

                                                     Daddy and son Bonding time

cookyn with Mervyn

Oh well is Ying hens night and she decided to celebrate it in the kitchen!it hs been a long long since we had a all girls date,no husbands,no kids.just the seven of us.Well initially we wanted to  meet at NYDC for a coffee seesion before proceeding to cooking,never did i expect that the girls will end up ordering so much food.In order to save my stomach for the meal later in the night i only had a cup of tea.Within that hr or so we had so much fun chatting,gossiping and catching up with one another.We laughed so much that stomachs were hurting and tears were rolling dwn.i was missing baby jairus n hubby though.
Anyway we spent the next few hrs in Mervyn kitchen and we whipped up the following dishes:
a. marinated hokkaido scallop sashimi with avruga caviar and truffle oil
b. roasted chicken leg with honeyed feta cheese
c. pasta with tiger prawns tossed in laksa cashew nut pesto
d. dark chocolate mousse with assorted berries
It was an awesome and memorable night!