Sigh,SIgh,SIgh

Dear GOD please enlighten me,i really need to make a decision soon,at the rate i visit the doctor and jairus visit the doctor,i will really break down I am really tired of worrying about my students,my marking,my work,my child my family...i used to love those big eyes of mine but these days they look so weary all day long and the dark eye rings seem to be getting worse and worse.I have been falling ill so so often that im am so embarrased to take MC for i feel bad to get other teachers to relief me 'and fear that i shortchange my pupils.MY nose has been bad and munn n JAirus have also been taking turns falling sick.Just the other day after the qunicy hotel stay,Alot of mozzie bites red spots starting surfacing on jairus body they look swollen and it was everywhere on his body i cant help but to rush him to Mount Alvernia however doc could not really tell whats wrong but only prescribe us with medicine for his bad runny nose.However the following ,the spots did not subside day and i had to send him to SBCC and the PD mentioned is hives though we do not know what trigger it and gave him so medication.Thank GOD the cold and red spots went away after a few days.

Then for the next few weeks, i had asthma attack,2 UTI infections which hurts my kidney,fever,unusual red patches on my body,bad body aching,bad headaches for days.and yes it all happens within 4 weeks, and that os excluding Jairus he was just hospitalised again the otehr day and it hurts me to see him undergoing IV drip and struuggling and crying each time he takes the medicine and is time to take his temperature.I have been to the doc so many times and spent to much money on the bills and recently the doc commented i am worn out,but how not to be when there is so much stress at home and work and im deprived of quality zzz,

THis has been a really terrible term for my health,is it showing signs that i shd change job?will i be able to find another job when i leabe teaching?should i stay at home to look after my own kid?am i shortchanging my students in school?have i brought inconvenience to my colleagues?

LORD i need an answer,please show me your way and will,,,,