16 months and

Baby JAirus is now 16 mths,where did the time go?this poor boy has been hospitalized for the third time since he is born  and we are praying very hard that he will grow up to be a healthy boy.hmmm 16 months and still not talking?personally i do understand boys tend to speak later but when i read about how other kinds including boys at his age has started to talk i do wonder is there anything wrong with baby JAirus,especially just the other day the {D mentioned he should be saying 3 words now.And i tend to get really annoyed when ppl around me comment about him not speaking and how i shd be teaching him.Maybe im too sensitive or defensive but i really do feel uncomfortable when others comment abt him not speaking

Another concern here is Baby Jairus is really shy and afraid of loud noise.He is very selective when it comes to strangers and he can be extreme shy n uncomfortable when dealing with crowds,hence he simplay hate all the animals shows we have watched for the past year. and yes i finally can understand how A feel when she suspects her daughter had some special needs,A few of my friends encounter the same problems when their child startd speaking late and they chose to take leave to stay at home to interact and teach the child.Perhaps i  should really consider that as well.

Well the little one seems to be in love with THOMAS the train lately,just the other day when we brought him to kiddy palace he was so attracted to thomas and spent squite some time talking to the toys and when we brought him to other section to look at other toys,immediately he ran back to thomas again haha.that sight was really cute.Thank God he did not kick a fuss when we left the shop.on the other hand maybe he should fuss because daddy and mummy were about to relent and purchase the toy for him.Anyway we just bought him a Thomas and train set over the weekend,we hope he does not destroy that just like what he did with the ELC train set which was his birthday present.

May God continue to bless and oveflow Jairus with his wisdom, his favour,his grace and good health always,Amen!

Sigh,SIgh,SIgh

Dear GOD please enlighten me,i really need to make a decision soon,at the rate i visit the doctor and jairus visit the doctor,i will really break down I am really tired of worrying about my students,my marking,my work,my child my family...i used to love those big eyes of mine but these days they look so weary all day long and the dark eye rings seem to be getting worse and worse.I have been falling ill so so often that im am so embarrased to take MC for i feel bad to get other teachers to relief me 'and fear that i shortchange my pupils.MY nose has been bad and munn n JAirus have also been taking turns falling sick.Just the other day after the qunicy hotel stay,Alot of mozzie bites red spots starting surfacing on jairus body they look swollen and it was everywhere on his body i cant help but to rush him to Mount Alvernia however doc could not really tell whats wrong but only prescribe us with medicine for his bad runny nose.However the following ,the spots did not subside day and i had to send him to SBCC and the PD mentioned is hives though we do not know what trigger it and gave him so medication.Thank GOD the cold and red spots went away after a few days.

Then for the next few weeks, i had asthma attack,2 UTI infections which hurts my kidney,fever,unusual red patches on my body,bad body aching,bad headaches for days.and yes it all happens within 4 weeks, and that os excluding Jairus he was just hospitalised again the otehr day and it hurts me to see him undergoing IV drip and struuggling and crying each time he takes the medicine and is time to take his temperature.I have been to the doc so many times and spent to much money on the bills and recently the doc commented i am worn out,but how not to be when there is so much stress at home and work and im deprived of quality zzz,

THis has been a really terrible term for my health,is it showing signs that i shd change job?will i be able to find another job when i leabe teaching?should i stay at home to look after my own kid?am i shortchanging my students in school?have i brought inconvenience to my colleagues?

LORD i need an answer,please show me your way and will,,,,