There are simply a few particular people in my office whom i cant stand..they r so damn bitchy n unprofessional....the thought of religious educators behaving in such immature manners simply turn me off...i din expect educators to be so damn bitchy...arent teachers supposed to be kind by nature?
My Lord says love God love all, whivh includes loving my enemies.I remember his words ...however ppl simply cant stop stabbing me .hello im nt a stone,i can see hear n feel.It really piss me off n upsets me when i know ppl r picking on me...i just wanna be left alone at work...what on earth have i done ... im nt a entertainer nor a "sa ka" person.im just being myself....
for heaven sake please preach what u say..btw if u r too lonely pls get urself a man...fall into love,get married n start a family...btw will appreciate if u can be more professional..
Friday, August 10, 2007
mixed feelings
I finally get a chance to blog again,it has been a long time since i last blog cuz once again i couldnt remember my password.For the last few weeks i have recieved good news from my buddies that they r getting married too.But when i know all our wedding dates r so close i begin to worry cuz first of all looks like i wont have any bridemaids left my ideal wedding was to have the whole group of them being my bridemaid looks like i can forget abt it,secondly i will be damn disappointed if anyone of them is able to turn up for my wedding shd they are superstitious abt "clashing"....
Lst week J told me she is not coming for my wedding i was abt to kill her...she has been my best fren all these yrs hw can she possibly miss my wedding...N hw do i let her know her presence n well- wishes mean alot to me..afterall of these yrs of friendship how can she nt turn up...i was utterly disappointed in her. i intended to ignore her for quite some time but since yesterday was her bday i stopped the cold war n asked her out for dinner.But for the first time i din wanna talk abt my wedding with her cuz the thought of her nt being there on my big day really breaks my heart.there is still a year ahead n i really hope she can change her mind n be there for me...now i finally understand y was Y so pissed off with me for missisng her ROM...
sigh isnt wedding supposed to be a joy btw Km n me.Y are there so much worries n concerns..
We are worried abt the date, first it must be sch holiday for both KM n myself then im hoping to get a date so tt J can turn up for my wedding...i worry abt engaging brida services l,i worry abt the wedding venue,i worry abt the guest list cuz there are simply a few irritating ppl whom i dun wanna see them on my wedding day..(but looks like i have to invite cuz they knw my darling as well) i worry the wedding is nt up to what i expected..i worry abt the cost as well, i worry i cant be a good daughter in law,i cant be a good wife and etc..I begin to hate myself more n more..y am i a WATER person..
Almighty god, marriage is a sacred gift frm god n is supposed to be a joyful occassion,father i pray that everything will run smoothly for us. I Pray that i will be able to prepare most of the stuff so tt KM can focus on his work..i dun wanna be a burden,Pray that i will be a happier person n will be able to look at things frm diff perspective..lord i can do all things through you who give me strength.Amen.
Lst week J told me she is not coming for my wedding i was abt to kill her...she has been my best fren all these yrs hw can she possibly miss my wedding...N hw do i let her know her presence n well- wishes mean alot to me..afterall of these yrs of friendship how can she nt turn up...i was utterly disappointed in her. i intended to ignore her for quite some time but since yesterday was her bday i stopped the cold war n asked her out for dinner.But for the first time i din wanna talk abt my wedding with her cuz the thought of her nt being there on my big day really breaks my heart.there is still a year ahead n i really hope she can change her mind n be there for me...now i finally understand y was Y so pissed off with me for missisng her ROM...
sigh isnt wedding supposed to be a joy btw Km n me.Y are there so much worries n concerns..
We are worried abt the date, first it must be sch holiday for both KM n myself then im hoping to get a date so tt J can turn up for my wedding...i worry abt engaging brida services l,i worry abt the wedding venue,i worry abt the guest list cuz there are simply a few irritating ppl whom i dun wanna see them on my wedding day..(but looks like i have to invite cuz they knw my darling as well) i worry the wedding is nt up to what i expected..i worry abt the cost as well, i worry i cant be a good daughter in law,i cant be a good wife and etc..I begin to hate myself more n more..y am i a WATER person..
Almighty god, marriage is a sacred gift frm god n is supposed to be a joyful occassion,father i pray that everything will run smoothly for us. I Pray that i will be able to prepare most of the stuff so tt KM can focus on his work..i dun wanna be a burden,Pray that i will be a happier person n will be able to look at things frm diff perspective..lord i can do all things through you who give me strength.Amen.
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